You Have a Great Past Just Ahead of You

If you were part of the “second family”,  summer vacation to you meant the beach:  sand and sea and the smell and taste of salt on your skin. It’s boogie boards and sunscreen and the sound of seagulls and the sting of jelly fish and buying the tee shirt with a beagle in the hammock and  going for ice cream on the sound. But if you were one of “the four” and you grew up in the land-locked midwest and it was 1980 something, summer vacation was a whole other thing. It was camping in the rain, little cereal boxes of your favorite cereals (except for the Raisin Bran which nobody wanted), trips to the ER for stitches and ear infections, and Silver Dollar City.

The first family vacation we ever took that was not to visit grandparents came about from a conversation with Paul’s brother David who insisted that the perfect vacation spot was hidden away deep in the Ozarks in an out-of-the-way spot known as Branson, Missouri. Today, of course, Branson is a destination in and of itself which draws thousands upon thousands of visitors each year to its music shows. But this was before all that. This was about a little theme park where you rode the trolley from the parking lot to the gate not because it was too far too walk but because it was one of the few “rides” the park offered and you listened to the patter of the “tour guide” who explained that you were about to step back in time – 100 years to be exact. “Welcome to Silver Dollar City – where you’ll find  a great past just ahead of you!” he promised as we stepped off the trolley and into some of the best memories we would make as a family.

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The first time we went was sometime in the early 80s; there is some disagreement among us as to the exact year so we’ll just call it 1980something. We sent away for the brochures and when they arrived in the mail (Seriously. That’s how we did things before the internet.), we sat down on family nights and poured over them:  planning our itinerary, studying the maps and highlighting the best route from Illinois to Missouri, making a budget, writing the lists of all the things to do and take and ready before our big adventure. How many weeks (months) did we do this?

Because we had no money, we knew hotel rooms and restaurant meals were out of the question. But not to worry – for a fraction of the cost we could buy a brand new tent (I think we already had some sleeping bags we had collected along the way) and thanks to our trusty brochures we found the Blue Mountain Campground nearby (with a swimming pool and laundry facilities!) where we could pitch our tent. We could afford tickets to Silver Dollar City for a day and half and the rest of the time we would vacation at the campground:  swimming and collecting wood for the fire we would build to cook our meals and toast marshmallows for the s’mores. What could possibly go wrong you ask. Let me count the ways.

1.   Before using a tent for the first time it would behoove. . .  (okay – cross that off my bucket list – I have always wanted to use that word in a sentence). . . it would behoove you to set it up at home to make sure (a) all the necessary pieces are present and accounted for and (b) you actually know how said pieces fit together.

2.  It rains in the Ozarks. A lot. Not all tents are waterproof.  Soaking wet sleeping bags require a heavy duty dryer which can only be found at a laundromat. Also, a strong storm can blow down a tent altogether.

Early one morning, after a night where no one had slept due to the soaking wet tent, the soaking wet sleeping bags, and the all round soaking wet, miserable conditions, the owners of the campground took pity on us. Chad was outside our tent – yelling.  “Faye says for y’all to come on up to the house for pancakes and get those babies in outa’ this rain!!”  Thank God for Chad and Faye and  Ozark hospitality!

3.  Camp playgrounds are all fun and games until someone parachutes out of a swing, lands in the gravel, and slices open her hand which will require a trip to the emergency room for stitches, taking up an entire afternoon of vacation. In years to come we would battle strep throat, ear infections and stomach flu – so much so that it seemed it wasn’t vacation if somebody didn’t get hurt or sick.

4.  It is best not to allow a three year old to jump into the deep end of the swimming pool holding a beach ball as a flotation device. This can go south pretty quickly.

5.  It turns out young children are more enamored with playing in the fire and cooking over the fire than they are with eating the food cooked in said fire. They’re not so much about the char the fire leaves on the hotdogs or the crunch of aluminum-foil-wrapped- potatoes cooked in the coals which never seemed to get done. But they did absolutely love the little individual boxes of cereal that they could open up, pour in the milk and eat right out of the box.

The tent – before it blew down in the rainstorm
Chad and Faye – God bless ’em
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And yet, for all of that, we returned to the Blue Mountain Campground again and again, year after year.

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The train robbery

And to Silver Dollar City.  After the first year we figured out that for not too much more money, we could buy a season pass and then go to the park every day for our five days of vacation. We rode the train with its steam powered engine and never grew tired of the train robbers who entertained the passengers with their scripted and improvised lines.

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Paul in the saloon show

We were regulars at the Silver Dollar Saloon where the singing bartenders served rootbeer in frosty mugs and peanuts in the shell. The saloon girls put on their show and hauled a sucker up from the audience to mock and ridicule him and so of course the kids figured out which chair they always chose to pull their victim from and convinced Dad to sit in the chair at least once a season. In the middle of the show Carrie Nation and her Suffragettes marched in to break up the riffraff and it took the Sheriff to restore order. The girls bought garters and when they got home they practiced the Can-Can and sang “Why do they call us wild women, wild women, wild women?  Why do they call us wild women when we’re just as tame as can be“.  Rosie was the main saloon girl and one day on our way to the park from the campground we stopped at a convenience store to pick something up and there was Rosie – buying a loaf of bread!  Day made!

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Good times at the Silver Dollar City Saloon.

The street theatre actors recognized the kids from year to year and incorporated them into their acts. They were on a first name basis with the Sheriff and the Deputy, with the Hatfields and McCoys. With the Rainmaker and the Undertaker who wandered the streets with his measuring tape. They loved the Story Teller and knew what time she would be at her spot to tell stories and choose them to be a part of them. They knew the musicians and where they performed and what time to catch them during the day. They knew the lady who ran the general store and the basket maker and the blacksmith.

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The Rainmaker
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The Storyteller
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Performing with Danny Eakin

And then there was Mercy.  He was the star of Silver Dollar City.  He seemed to be everywhere:  interacting with the guests, heckling and teasing and aggravating and everyone loved him. He knew our kids by name and if we missed a year he would ask them where they had been. Eventually they got to know the actor behind the character. His name was Jack McDowell and they invited him to lunch and he told them about Silver Dollar City behind the scenes. We exchanged Christmas cards and kept up with him and his career for many years.

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Mercy on the street.
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He was the star

There were a only a  few rides:  the American Plunge which was a log flume ride and left your stomach at the top of the summit before plunging you down the to the bottom and the Lost River of the Ozarks inner tube ride that guaranteed a good dousing under the waterfall. There was a ball pit and a playground  and a carousel, but mostly it was about the community:  the musicians around every corner and the street theatre which was both predictable and spontaneous, the craftsman and the artisans. It was about the funnel cakes and the frozen lemonade and the penny candy at the general store. As the kids got a little older we would let them roam the park on their own and meet back periodically to check in at a designated spot (it was a different time and a different place). One day I was walking through the park alone and I turned a corner to find the baritone from the barbershop quartet all alone in an isolated spot singing “How Great Thou Art”.   His eyes were closed, his arms lifted to the sky and it struck me that he was not performing, he was worshiping.  This was  a private moment, not a public one.  I tried to slip away unnoticed so as to not interrupt him when he opened his eyes and saw me. He blushed a little.  “I’m on my break,” he said.  “I just needed to recharge.”  For years I would recall that scene when I needed to recharge.

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The American Plunge
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Lost River of the Ozarks

Every day at the park started with the sheriff deputizing all the kids with sheriff badges and then lining them up to stand at attention as the flag was raised. The day ended with the lowering and the folding of the flag.

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The Sheriff deputizes the kids every morning. . . with a badge.
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In the evening we headed to Echo Hollow, the big amphitheater, for the Silver Dollar City Jubilee: an evening of Bluegrass music and comedy with Mercy as the warm up act. They might  change the show from year to year but the performers were always the same – and once again they recognized us and greeted us like old friends. And then it was back to the campground where, if we were lucky, the tent and sleeping bags would be dry and we could light a fire and Dad would pull out his harmonica and we would unwind from the the day so we could  get up in the morning, eat little boxes of cereal and head back to do it all over again.

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Echo Hollow

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I don’t know how many times we went on this vacation. Five maybe?  Six? I know we went back a couple of times after Joy was born. She danced in the streets to the music, she plummeted down the American Plunge tucked in between us and rode the Lost River of the Ozarks, squealing with delight as the water fall dumped water over our heads. She rode the carousel and ate the funnel cakes and slept in the tent. But I think it was after that that we moved east and the story shifted.

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Joy dancing to the music

We made one trip with all of eight of us. In was in 1989. Fletcher was a year old, Joy was five and the others were . . .  older. But it wasn’t the same. Some of the old, familiar faces were gone, others had taken their place who didn’t know us from the next guy and there some new, added  “attractions”.  Still, it was enough the same that we could say, “Oh!  And remember this?!” But you could tell that change was afoot.

The last trip – 1995. And that’s Jack McDowell in the middle.

In the summer of 1995 we were making a trip to Colorado for Paul’s parent’s 50th wedding anniversary. Somehow somebody suggested, “What if we went through Branson and spent a day at Silver Dollar City?  But maybe we sleep in a cabin.”  And so we did. We wanted Fletcher to see it, to experience it, but afterwards we all sort of wished we hadn’t done it. The magic was gone.  It was more like a conventional theme park – more about the plethora of  rides which had been added  over the years and less about the craftsmen and the music and the street theatre. Less personal somehow and more crowded. We did look up Jack McDowell. who was working someplace else by then and had lunch with him.  But he had moved on too, and we all mourned the loss of the place where we had met and spent so many happy hours. We stopped by the Blue Mountain Camp Ground just to see if it was still there.  It was.  Chad had died some time ago and Faye was away when we stopped, but when we went in the office, there on the bulletin board was a picture of two year old Joy.

Joy reminds me that in 1999, Paul and I and she and Fletch stopped again when we were traveling west to see family. Oddly enough, I have absolutely no memories of it.  Maybe it was just too different and I didn’t want to remember it that way.

One of the kids said once, “Don’t you wish you could go back to Silver Dollar City for the first time?”  And that sort of captures it. It was magical. Pure and utter magic. But it’s sort of like Camelot or Brigadoon. It’s been almost 40 years since that first time and now it’s gone and there’s no way to get back to what it was no matter how much you might wish otherwise. And maybe that’s where the magic lies. The place – as we knew it –  is gone.  The children – as we knew them – are gone.  But the stories.  They are alive and well and welcome us back again and again.

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Valentines and Birthin’ Babies

 

I was 21 the winter of 1972. I was a full time college student, a full time wife, a part time Dunkin’ Donuts employee, a soon-to be first time mom and it could have been me instead of Prissy who said to Scarlett in Gone With the Wind, “I don’t know nuthin’ ‘bout birthin’babies.”

And yet. . . on February 14th I was going to have a baby no matter what I did or didn’t know. I knew with absolute certainty that the baby would come on the 14th because when my obstetrician had said,  “Congratulations, you’re pregnant!” he had also told me “and your due date is February 14th.”  Which explains why, when I told all my professors the first of February that I would not be in class on the 14th because I was having my baby that day, they made the obvious inquiries: c-section? induction?  And when I explained that no, but my doctor said the due date is the 14th so I will need all of my assignments ahead of time and will probably be out for several days, the kinder ones smiled and the rest snickered and some even laughed out loud.

While I had never really been a die-hard chocoholic, as this Valentine’s Day drew near I drooled over the elaborate boxes of chocolates on display in all of the stores and cursed my doctor who had threatened me within an inch of my life if I gained more than 20 pounds – seriously, this was the dark ages. But I made it known to my husband that I would be expecting one of those super large boxes of confectionery delights to show up in my hospital room in a few days and I didn’t care if he had to spend the rent money to buy it. I oh-so-carefully selected a Valentine’s Day card for him and wrote a sentimental and loving note in it since I didn’t want to be outdone by what he was sure to give me along with my candy: a beautiful expression of his gratitude, appreciation and love for the mother of his new little baby boy or girl.

Valentine’s Day arrived. I refused to go to class because how could I show up there still pregnant???  Later in the day we sat at our kitchen table. I gave him my card and he swallowed hard. “I haven’t gotten you anything yet. I thought I would bring it to the hospital.” “That’s okay,” I said barely choking  back the tears. “I wasn’t expecting anything.”  But of course I was. I was expecting a baby. And he hadn’t come. I was devastated. No baby and no candy.  Could this day get any worse?

Lucky for me (and my GPA), we didn’t have to wait long. Paul worked the night shift and it was early in the morning that I called him to come home.  “I think this is it.” Suffice it to say that my labor was long, it was hard and that due to the fact that I was pretty heavily drugged because that’s the way it was back then, I don’t clearly remember much about it. What I do remember is that I had no idea what was happening, I was scared, I was hurting and they kept chasing Paul out of the room. I also remember that eventually I reached the point where I could not go on.  Only later would we learn that this stage of labor is called transition and that it is marked by irritability and a need for emotional support. And that’s pretty much the way it went down.

Paul:  What can I do for you?
Me:  Just hold my hand.  
Paul:  I’m right here and I’m holding your hand.  
Me:  But don’t touch me.
Paul:  Okay. I won’t.
Me:  Just hold my hand!!
Paul:  Okay.
Me:  But don’t touch me!!!!!
Paul: oka…..
Me: HOLD MY  *#$%  HAND!!!!!!!!!
 

And so it went for the next hour.

Finally they took me to the delivery room. My 68 year old mother and my 21 year old husband (who they almost didn’t let onto the maternity ward because the nurses thought he did not meet the requirements of being 14 or older) sat together in the waiting room. Finally the doctor left the delivery room to give them the news. He looked from the old woman to the boy and unsure of any of the relationships asked, “Are you with Mrs. Abbott?” They assured him they were.  “You have a son,” he told my husband.  It was February 16th. The day my life changed forever.

That evening Paul came during visiting hours (yes, even husbands were restricted to visiting hours) carrying a big, heart-shaped box filled with chocolates. This had worked out well for him. “It’s so good you waited to have the baby because now all the Valentine Candy is 50% off!!!!”  Of course, by then the craving was gone and I don’t think I ate even one. But the nurses were grateful.

Thus began our journey into the world of parenting.  And from that day to this I have lived with the revelation that if I knew nothing about birthing babies, I knew even less about parenting. Thank you to my first born for loving me anyway and for not giving up on us.  And thanks for some great stories.

I think he was about six when I heard him explaining to his younger sister that when she grew up and got married she would have a different last name. She found this slightly alarming. “What would my name be?”  “Well, if you married George Norcross then you would be Tabi Norcross.”  “What if I married Mark Kennerly?”  “Well, then. . .  he said with only a hint of hesitation.  “I guess you would be  Mark Norcross.” Say what?

He was maybe four when he yelled to me from the bathroom one day. “MOM, COME IN HERE NOW!!”  I came running, expecting there to be a crisis of unimaginable severity. “What’s wrong???”  “There is a spider in here!!!” By now he was hyperventilating. And don’t ask me why I asked him the next question or what I expected his answer to be, but certainly not what it was.  “What kind of spider is it?”  I asked him as though he would know or it would make any difference to either of us. “I don’t know,” he replied.  “But I think it’s Jewish.”  I have no idea.

When the first Star Wars opened in the theaters he was five years old and like every other little boy in America, he lived and breathed the characters and the stories. . .  for years.  He drug his sisters outside to play, assigning them roles.  He would play both Hans Solo AND Luke Skywalker and they would be cast in the roles of  Leia ( the sister who had the braids that she could put into buns on the side of her head), Chewbaca (the sister who had a rust colored winter coat that he insisted she wear even in the August heat), and C3PO (the sister he wanted to be able to turn off her constant chatter with a switch). There’s only room for one director.

He might have been ten the year we gave him the book The Hobbit for a Christmas present. He read all that day and into the night, caught up in the world of hobbits and elves and dwarves and the Shire. It must have been after midnight when he came out of his room into the living room in tears. “What’s wrong?” we asked him.  “Nobody told me that Fili and Kili died,” he sobbed.  “Who thought it was a good idea to give a little kid a book like that for a present?!”  But thus began his life long love of Tolkien.

He was 19 when he joined the Marine Corps. The recruiter came to the house to pick him up and watching him get in that car and drive away was one of the hardest things I had ever done.  His stories from the Corps are legendary, but those are his to tell. . . and he does it so much better.

Except for this one:  He graduated from Boot Camp on July 4th in Paris Island, South Carolina.  The entire family traveled to his graduation.  What we didn’t know is what we carried  with us.

After graduation he returned home with us for a few days and then we sent him off to North Carolina for more training. A few days later we got a call on our answering machine:  “Hello, Mr. and Mrs. Abbott.  This is Captain _____ (I no longer remember his name.)  I am calling in regards to your son. Private Abbott  is under quarantine at the Base Hospital with the Chicken Pox. And our experience is that in situations such as these, the Marine recovers better at home.”  Translation:  the Marine needs his mommy.

And then there is this. It was  his fifth birthday. We lived in an apartment which was on the second and third floor of an old house, and I had sent him up to my bedroom on the third floor to retrieve my hair dryer (the kind that was sort of a portable model of a salon hair dryer.) As usual his sister, two years younger than he, was on his heels because she followed him everywhere. He was lugging the dryer down the stairs and explaining to her:  “Tabi, it’s a good thing Mom sent me to get this hair dryer because it is so heavy that only a five year old can carry it.” She nodded, appropriately impressed with his new-found five-year-old strength. “And,” he continued, “sin is so heavy that only Jesus can carry that.”  From the mouths of babes.

My first born is now himself a good husband and father and leader of men. 

It has been a long road from that day 43 years ago when I finally got my Valentine Card, my box of candy, and my son.  And not always an easy one for either of us. But Jesus has carried us and our sin and His grace to this place where we are today, and for that I am grateful. And I am blessed to be his mother.

Happy Birthday, Sean!  And have some Valentine candy.  It’s half off!

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